Lol, my life is hot now. Very very hot.
Well, it's just my 'curhatan'. Well, yeah.
At first, it's all just a small problem. But, now, I don't know why this problem get bigger.
In the beginning, I just feel uncomfortable. What kind of friendship it is? they find a new friend, then they throw me like a rubbish. I try to understand.
Next, they're annoying, really. The one of them really close with that girl, just like an glue and envelope. And the other is annoying too. I tried to clean all this problems by chat and tried to kind with her even though it's hard. But everytime I went to her, she just like ignored and want to join the others. And I'm sick of her.
On my birthday, it was unexpected. They really weren't prepare anything to me. Even one. No, I think they just forgot it. I thought it will be a blast day. But, oke, I won't remember it again.
On school day, I stayed away from them. They greeted me. But you know, I just can't stand it. When I got mad, I couldn't fake my smile because I'm not a 'two-faces' person. I'm sorry.
Then, they stayed away from me too. It was good. It gave us time to think about our mistakes.
But after that, everything just got worst.
I exchange my opinion with my other friend. And I let them to enjoy their life with their new friend. I'm not blame their new friend. Or blame them. But, you can think it yourself.
HERE, I WOULDN'T ACT LIKE I'M STRONG. I WOULDN'T ACT LIKE I'M FINE. I WOULDN'T ACT LIKE I HAVE NO MISTAKES. BECAUSE EVERYONE HAVE THEIR OWN MISTAKES. I WOULDN'T ACT LIKE I'M STRONG. I WON'T.
to be honest, it's hurts. I think they know what I feel, here, YOU CAN LOOK DOWN AT ME OR SOMETHING. But, the most important thing that you should know, I'm still a teenager girl, just like you. Who need a friend, need a fun. HERE I WON'T ACT LIKE I'M MATURE, BECAUSE I HAVEN'T YET. I'm still a teenager girl. I try to strong. I try to accept your habit. But, you even don't notice me.
You're wicked. Very wicked. I already kind with you, ain't I ? I listened you story, I cheered you up when you got down, I gave you a half of mine. I helped you to install the game. I helped you on the exam. I gave you a birthday present. I arrange the surprise event, until you touched. I accompanied you. I took you home. I fed you. I helped you with everything that I could help. I kept your secret. I kept your good name.That's just a good memories. And I'm thankful of that. But, what is your replication? This? This painful memories?
I'm not write this in purpose. It's not because my purpose is to make you reply all this by your money or your lie word or something. But, I just need your respect. Could you respect me?
You said that I satirize you in a social network. You said that I'm haggard if I satirize you in a social network? You wrote it on your blog or whatever is then you post it on that social network. But, now I ask you something, what is our different? You satirize me in that social network too! The different is just, I'm short, but yours is long. You said that I don't know how to thankful. But now, I'm asking you, what is the kindest thing that you already give to me and I don't thankful for it? What is that? Have you ever done that to me?
Second, you said that I provoke my other friend to hate you? Now I ask you again, Who is I provoke? Her ? Her? Do they hate you? No.
You should mirror first, you provoke the others. I know, because of you one of the girl is.. Well, not kind again with me, it's because of you? or her? or her?
Third, here, I want to say, maybe I often say a lot of mistaken words. But, you know. It's all just kidding. Perhaps you haven't a good sense of humor. Here, I want to apologize even though it wasn't my fault.
Fourth, you said I'm a bitch? What is bitch mean? 'wanita jalang' ? lol, I'm not a bitch. I'm just a student, teenager and fangirl. There aren't bitch here. You or me or her or her, we're not. But why you keep talking about that? You know, it gives you a sin.
Fifth, you said Allah will reply all mine? What will Allah reply? Am I the wrong person here?
Now, you live your life with your new friend. Just enjoy it. And taste it. I have try to understand. But I think, you couldn't be understanded. Or you won't.
There's no one wrong wrong here. There are just an overstated and misunderstanding. We might be get bored of this all. Just live your life properly. And take care yourself.
Now, we just need to think about our self mistakes. Don't blame anyone. We're just a good memories. It's good to fill my day with you. Even though there are always a painful thing. But it is memory.
Here, I want to be honest. I want to try to control my ego. To make everything better. To make us 'fine'. You can look down at me after you read this. Maybe you will do that. But, you're human right? I know you still have a humanity. You still have a warm heart. I did a lot of wrong things perhaps. I apologize.
I really won't ruin anything. But, don't you remember? our good memories? Then, if you couldn't remember it, It's okay. Just forget it then.
And, after read this. Are you still feel, I'm haggard because satirize you here? :)
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